Slightly scared...

So today is the last day of one of our project managers who has resigned. She actually resigned last month, but has been sticking around to finish up projects. So why am I writing about this? Because I'm taking one of her biggest clients and I have no idea what I'm doing...

She has this master spreadsheet with all her projects, which is great. Unfortunately, when I've tried to ask her about how to update it, and who to call, she just talks and talks about the projects, but never actually gives me an answer. Or well, the answer I'm looking for. I tried to ask her this morning, since it's her last day. But again, not answering my question.

I'm really nervous about taking on her responsibilities because even though I've been down here for 2 months, there are SO many things I don't know how to do. The government has so many wacky processes that I'm honestly so lost. I really don't want this responsibility at all. I hate not knowing what I'm doing. I feel like I've just been thrown into this project manager role and I haven't had the opportunity to learn the designer role yet.

I don't like being down here, and getting this task only decreases my chances of going back to Arlington. All I keep hoping is that we DON'T get this contract renewed so we can get out of here in March. But that still leaves all of February.

Things here are overwhelming, well the processes I don't know. and honestly, I don't want to really learn them because I don't want to be here long. But I will tell you what, if I am here long, well in another few weeks or so, and I'm doing this whole project manager thing, I'm going to ask for a raise. This is not responsibility I was asked about, it was just thrown at me. All I want to do is space plan and work on CAD, not worry about chairs coming in....